Friday, September 25, 2009

Today I'm so full of positiveness it's almost ridiculous. I feel such an abundance of health and power in every life aspect that it would easily last for two. It's like spreading out life-rays wherever I go.
I know it must sound a bit cheesy, but that's how it really is right now. And it's true actually the thing with the mirror... I get smiles and smiles and shining eyes and hearts wherever I look.
We had also a beautiful extra-healthy lunch today, with half-boiled veggies, salad, a lentil curry without oil, whole wheat roti-bread (like naan) and rice. The waiters already know us everywhere and I think for them we're like two friendly pain-in-the-arses, who always want something special and on the super healthy side. But they do whatever we ask them for. Really whatever! So nice people. I must say almost everybody in this village so far is being so friendly to us, taxi drivers, vendors, the kids, the mamas (our beloved doctor not to forget) and even the dogs and cows.
Today we went for a little swim before our treatment - it's such a sunny and perfect day - and as my bikinis were still wet I decided to find a place for god-swimming (god-swimming is another term for nude-swimming "fkk"). Cause I try to be not too offensive, I went behind some rocks and also because I wanted to avoid the gazes by the plenty of Indian men that come here for vacation and who are always very open and communicative. Anyways, of course, we were not alone for more than 1 minute or so. And after I decided not to be bothered and to react as naturally as possible I was so surprised about how positive the reaction was! The guy that came over was so great, cool and respectful and treated me even like a dressed person. Also the three other men that were a little farther away reacted very positive. I must say, so far, I like the men here so much. They're so friendly and soft and you can tell that they act from an honest and innocent heart. I love it. Even when they get direct they stay natural. Until now we had some situations where guys asked us about boyfriends and stuff and when they noticed that we are not interested they all accepted the "no" (some after a while of explaining;) and left us with a polite "okay madam".
Today I feel very sexual. Actually since yesterday. I think the Ayurveda-massage is releasing some energies as well. It's so funny, I feel like I could get a dozens of super-orgasms, which could produce light for Mumbai and Delhi together. So far, to my biological urges. Digestion good today, also. Thank you Friday you've been very good to me so far.

Thursday, September 24, 2009

Glitter-glow-flow

WOW!
Yesterday night I had one of the most striking experiences of my entire life.
When we came back from town we found everybody back in the beach hut ready for a night swim. As it was already midnight and we were, quite frankly, just very very scared, we first hesitated before we finally joined. So, first skeptically and very carefully we entered the black huge ocean heading into the dark. After a few steps it suddenly started glowing! What was that? The more you moved the more it surrounded you and when you started swimming your whole body started to shine like an angel. I still don't really know what these plant-animal-micro-creatures are, but they are overwhelmingly beautiful. In this moment I suddenly totally grasped the meaning of "where's love there can be no fear". Though I understood it before in an intellectual way, I now KNOW what it exactly means, cause I experienced just that last night. In the very moment that I was surrounded by this unreal gorgeous light, there was only the NOW and nothing else. No space for fear, thoughts, mind...

Life is beautiful and it's now!

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

Ayurveda-man, I love you!

So, so so. What's new? too much and nothing for real. Today I wrote 3 pages, which I wanted to type in here, but now after dinner and a beer it's not really tempting anymore. Here in short(er):
1. The Indian food is AWESOME & it makes me smell like somebody I don't know, but probably like. So I have to get used my new self, which is very interesting. It sort of reminds you continuously that you're there. Hm.
2. We're getting an Ayurvedic treatment, which means that we're mainly oily, full of bruises a little bit stinky (due to the oil), sometimes shitting all day long (due to the cleansing-"medicine") and totally satisfied. So, all together smelly, but happy!
3. I already drove a little motorbike (on the LEFT) and it's so much fun!
4. My Ayurvedic doctor is my friend and a magic man. He's got supernatural superpower and I want him to adopt me and to heal me, of course.
5. I already know that I'll come back to this country and that 6 months are just a joke compared to what you can learn here in terms of everything!!!
back to life now...

Ayurveda is goood for you!

Saturday, September 19, 2009

4th day in India

Time passes without asking you if you're ready or not.
We're still in Palolem and my friend is still sick, which is a real bummer. For both of us. For her, as she feels terrible. For me, as we're tight to this place and not able to move/plan or do anything. We're already trying our best with using every useful medicine we have, but so far without improvement.
Today I went for a little hike and found a marvelous place on the shore surrounded by black round rocks and a lush jungle. I spent most of the day there napping, reading, meditating. Then veg. Sheesh Kebab with "Kingfisher"(Indian beer and airline). Can't wait for action, adventure, adrenalin...though I'll never complain about relaxing at the beach;)
P.S.: Can't wait for more open travelers. Here everybody does his or her own thing. Not easy to get in touch (and frankly not always desirable).

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

OK

Alright. So obviously I'm in India, he? Doesn't necessarily feel like it I must say so far, but I guess that has to do with Goa or Palolem in particular. The foremost so-called hippie-paradise nowadays mutated to a juppie-eldorado, at least from what I've seen so far. Shopping booths, "sweety bars" and Mexican food. The full load of Junk-Tourism. First we arrived in Agonda, which is more of a tiny very very remote and quiet fisher village, but Sonja didn't want to stay for various reasons. I was a bit disappointed and irritated, but as we're traveling together it's ok to be flexibel.
In Agonda is also the Yoga place, whose reality appearance was a sort of surprise as well. I was expecting a sort of Ashram (as said in the web) but found a regular house, where the students are supposed to stay and nothing more. Nothing really - obviously - spiritual. Well, the "guru" himself seems to be a laid back guy who is really, eh, laid back? I really don't want to judge too fast and build my opinion on a quick impression. But as they say, the first impression stays. At the moment I really feel like checking out the area to get a feeling for the country and its people (who I don't get a connection to, yet, either So far people are very distant). In this very moment I would rather take a train and see Hampi, Pune and head finally over Mumbai to the Himalaya to get the "real" shit...
anyways, I take it easy and see how things develop. My friend Sonja is being sick all day long from the heat and the humidity, which doesn't make it easier and I also start realizing how different our traveling styles are. Hm, always not easy. You can be the best and closest friends, but when it comes to traveling you start from zero and the experiment can begin. But so far we're still communicating well, even if it's hard work sometimes. And I hope that it'll turn out as a positive experience for both. We'll see.
What I already know is one thing: I'm gonna go SHOPPING tomorrow! And now back into my room to get some night-sleep. finally

Monday, September 14, 2009

last heart attack!!!

I just opened my email account and what do I find? An email by air India, which says: "Dear Ms. Bouars we asked you to send us a copy of your passport as we need it for your credit card authorization. We never received it and therefor cancelled your flight reservation." AAAAAAARGH!
I didn´t know what to do first: cry, scream, call my friend Sonja (who´s flying with me tormorrorw) to tell her what happened or just stay paralyzed and hope it´s a bad dream or a very very bad joke by god or Mr. AirIndia. In the end I decided to call the number on the bottom. After several minutes of waiting while listening to one of those melodies, which are already annoying without being totally stressed out a surprisingly nice woman answered the phone. She patiently listened to my fragmented flight-life-story and calmed me down by saying don´t worry we´ll find a solution. Well, and what can I say this woman tried everything for me and now got the flight for the SAME price, which is normally almost impossible as she told me then. Usually they go up to 2000Dollars and more.
Now I´m waiting for the email confirmation. I´m still super nervous staring anxiously at my email account hoping for the word "Air India" to appear...but I´m positive. Oh gosh, I have to become more organized I think;)

Sunday, September 13, 2009

Pre-India time: 1,5 days left

Yesterday I went to a party in the famous "Kiefernstrasse", where I met an Englishman who said: "You know I'm still adjusting here in Germany. The thing that I still have to get used to is that people don't say "sorry" here. They say "BE CAREFUL"!" ( he lives here since 18 years!)
That's exactly what always makes me wanna leave again. Thank you Englishman, I agree so much on this.
The life-concept of the Kiefernstrasse made me wonder about coming back there one day. So inspiring! The people there so open, the atmosphere so friendly and wherever you look creativity. I wanna be part of it. Ok, step by step Sarah. Now, first a siesta then packing and some organizational things first. Life is being so sweet to me and I'm grateful for having all these wonderful people around me who give me so much love, power and who help me to stay open and full of faith! Thank you, I love you guys so much.

Saturday, September 12, 2009

Pre-India time: 3 more days

It´s Saturday here and that leaves me less than 3 more days before my flight. I feel unprepared on the behalf of everything, which has to do with organizational stuff. Mentally I feel more than ready to leave here. It´s about time.